Dear God, I feel very upset tonight... but You already know that... and so why are You not resolving this for me... or at least, help me understand... This man that entered my life psychically years ago... and whom I believe You sent me because I had just prayed for a great love... Why did it have to be so painful... most of his choices have broght me a lot of pain over the years.... how many times have I prayed about it... have You being counting...? Whatever happened tto all those prayers... why so many went unanswered?

 Tonight, I 'm back to wondering about his friendship with that woman... you know the one that does all those photoshoots... It just does not make sense... I see a woman with a screwed up value system... but his value system is also screwed up... so what on earth... is this friendship Your will for him God? I cannot believe it... but it's been 11 years now... I feel so blue... this world doesn't make sense anymore... if only You could feel my pain...

I feel as if there's no point in praying anymore... Still, for what it's worth, I 'm praying tonight that he wakes up and sees the hypocrisy of this woman and finally pushes her away for good.  

Thank You