I am going to commit suicide at the end of this month. I am trying to get my affairs in order, and I figure I should be ready by then. Perhaps you could pray I don't go to hell for this, but more importantly, please pray for my son so he can get over me and lead a good life. I keep him in church, so I hope they can help him get through this. I just know that if I stay here I'll screw up his life later on. I have failed at everything in life, so I know I'll eventually fail as a father and screw up his life. God has rejected me for whatever reason, and I just can't keep going like this. Please do not send messages to try to encourage me, or tell me to keep haning on, or whatever, because I have already been trying all of that bullsh.t and it does not work for me. Just pray for my son, and that's all I'm asking for. His name is John.
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Lord may you not turn away from this man, I do not know the the events which have lead to this point but I pray in Jesus name that you have mercy upon this man and and his situation. For Lord you are a Faithful God! You made youself into flesh and suffered and died that we may have eternal life! For Lord if you loved us enough to do this, then Please I humbly ask that you reveal your love, truth, and purpose to this man. Convict him in his heart of hearts oh Lord that you are a Mercyful, Loving God who cares about him in ways beyond human thought and emotion. Lord you have blessed this man with a son and it is within your power to shake the heavens, I pray in Jesus name you would maifest your love for him and whatever wall is up that it would be removed completely. In an instant you can send the right people or circumstances to turn our lives around.This website may be one of the reasons you turned my life around as only a week ago I was ready to to say goodbye and still struggle to survive one day at a time. I believe you are speaking directly to him through these people and Lord work through me as well. I pray it be your will to do this thing in the life of this man and for his son's sake, in Jesus name Amen.
God,I pray that You have, in some meaningful way, shown Yourself to this man since he first posted his prayer on this page. God, I pray that You have given him a turnaround that is so ridiculously powerful that he will know that it was from You. I pray that You have not let this man go any longer with the belief that You have rejected him. In Lamentations, it is said that You do not walk out and fail to return. That was written about You. Please God, return to NoJuan. I pray, I PRAY that You have moved and given this man the answers that he had been looking before a long time ago. I pray now, for his son. I ask that You have moved in him and through him and given him peace to pass on to his father. God protect him. If NoJuan is still with us God, then I thank You for just one more day. I pray that THIS is the day, that You show Yourself strong in his life. I ask You Father, to please have some compassion for this man. Please Father, bind the Devil and all of his plans for NoJuan. He wants NoJuan to have no hope, but God You are stronger than the Devil and if You want him to know that You are there, if You really want him to know that You have not rejected him, then the only way that he will know it is if You tell him. God, blatant action is asked of You at this time. BLATANT ACTION GOD. Get straight Saul of Tarsus on him and BLIND him with Your love. You said that many will say Lord, Lord, and You will not know them because they did not do what was required of them. God, You require some form of action. (You said that faith without WORK is dead) Well, Lord, the same is needed from You. Words, are not enough, God, we need Your ACTION Father. Verbs dear God, please! We are begging this of You. Please do not withold Yourself from this man any longer.There is nothing that we can do to MAKE You do anything Father. You will do what You want and when You want to, if You want to at all. We can beg, plead, cry, pray, cut ourselves, do all sorts of ritualistic things to implore Your move in NoJuan's life, but ultimately, You will decide if You are going to do this thing. All we can do is ask.We have asked.We are waiting for action.Not answers.Action.
God, please bless this man's son. please give him peace and understanding. protect him from anyone that would try to harm him. please bless NoJuan. God You said You would hear the cries of those in distress and You would answer. it is in the book that You said we should study. God, please do not let this situation go unnoticed. Please do not ignore this. Please let them feel Your peace God. Let it be more than just feeling You, but give them some peace. if You have not already, please ease up. you said that you want us to be in good health and prosper but nobody on this planet can do that without Your help, so You have to put into effect what it is that You said that You wanted. You want us happy and healthy? then do something about it please God. we are still coming to You and God sometimes, well, recently, most times, it feels so futile and stupid to do this. it feels like You do not want to be bothered, largely because it feels like You haven't been bothered for a long time. Please care- and please do more than that. Please fix.
Lord,You know what I am asking of You today. Today is the 25th. Jesus please, please- please tell him what You know he needs to know. God please do not ignore this situation. Please God.
God,We know what You said in Your word. Please show it today, God. Please. You said for us to come to You, but honestly, coming to You seems to bring on more stress, pain and trouble. God, we are waiting. I am waiting and it seems like it is futile. If it is not futile God, please move now.
God,God, I hope You like being stalked. If You have given up on this man and his family, please at least tell him why. But if not, then God please, PLEASE, show him a sign. PLEASE GOD. You cannot lie. You said that it was not Your wish that anyone should perish, so, unless You have changed Your mind on that- fix this situation. Show Yourself God. You did it for Elijah on Mt. Carmel, for no other reason that to just show Yourself. God, show Yourself, in a positive way in NoJuan's life and in the life of his son. Turn things around God.
God, We have examples of You answering prayers. We know that You can do it. Please, be with this family today. Please get into this situation, put Your hand in it and turn it around. We know You can do it. So do it. Please do not ignore our pleas.
NoJuan, when I saw your first letter I wanted so badly to write you personally and tell you some things, but I could not figure out how to do it on this site, and I doubted that it would even matter to you. I was afraid of sounding stupid or that you would think that I was nuts. I am sitting here shaking right now, because it seems like you are living my life from earlier this year. I wish I could tell you...if I could only tell you. I have spent nights and even days prostrate on the floor begging and pleading with God to just move, change, talk to me-something- give me some indication that He is with me, that He has not rejected me that I have not done anything wrong, that He exists- something. I have recently begged and pleaded God to end my life or give me some sign that He is hearing me and to tell me why I am going through these things. NoJuan this thing, this darkness hurts to the CORE. It is like God is administering cruel and unusual punishment and no one had been able to understand it or tell me that they have been there. It seems like things go supernaturally wrong in my life and I could not figure out for the life of me, where I went wrong. I prayed and asked God and got NO indications of my wrongdoing. Things that should naturally happen, simply do not. Everything hurts soo much that I am almost entirely numb, spiritually, emotionally, physically. I cannot explain why I am saying this but I feel that I need to say this: You did not do anything. Please hear me out on this. Actually, I cannot go into it on here because, well, look- email me. Please email me. I am begging you. Irissamarie@gmail.com. I cannot check my email here at work (they block all email correspondence) but I will email you as SOON as I get home if you would just email me. I will be home by 6. Please, email me. I think you are the person that I am supposed to share this with. I have been praying about this thing.
Just wanted to let you know I appreciate your prayers. It seems you really understand what I'm going through. I really love my son so much, but I just can't bear to think that I may do more damage to his life trying to be a dad to him. Failing as a dad means it might really mess up his future, and I can't let that happen. I have tried praying, reading the Bible, going to church Sunday morning & night, and Wednesday night, tithing, asking for prayers at church, but nothing seems to make any difference in my life. I keep spiraling downward and I feel I keep falling further away from God. I don't understand why God has turned away from me, but I'm sure I'm to blame...maybe I have committed the unpardonable sin, blasphemy against the Holy Spirit. But, whatever the reason, I have no joy. I have no assurance of God with me. I have lost my faith, and I just want this torment to end. I want all of this pain in my head to end. I have asked God what I need to do to get back to Him, or what I have done wrong to be rejected by Him, but I get no answers. For me, this continual silence is proof that I have made God turn away from me and I have fallen to a place of no returning. I can't believe my life is one huge failure, but so be it. If I die now and find myself in Hell, I suspect it would be no different than how it is now, for I feel I am already in Hell. At least I won't be trying all the time only to reap curses as if I had not tried at all. It should not be this hard to live for God. All of my efforts to live correctly should not be in vein and unblessed. Yet, it has become too hard to live for God. I feel I'm on my own without help from Him. I just want this pain to end. Please, continue to pray that my son will get over me and go on to live a blessed life. Pray that it is not too late for him. He is only 7 years old, but my curses may have already been passed onto him. Just pray that God will have favor on my son and that my son will lead a good life in God. Pray that whatever I have done to cause God to reject me will not effect my son's relationship with God. And thanks in advance for your prayers.
still praying...Lord. We are still looking for You. Looking for a move from You Father. I pray that it is done. I pray that You have given NoJuan light, cleared obstacles, everything that has been done for others, i now ask that You infuse every smidgen of peace, light and freedom into his life. God, i know You can do it. I saw it right here on this board. You did it for another member of this board and I thank You. Now I ask that You do it for him. God please do not let Your child feel alone for another fraction of a second. Please remove obstacles, bring down strongholds, all of those things that You said that You would do, i ask right now that You do it. God please remove the Devil from this situation. Please God, throw the devil out of whatever room NoJuan maybe in right now please. You believe in intercession, You require it, so I am asking that You cover NoJuan with the faith of those that are on this board, and move on this situation right now. Bless his son Lord. Show Yourself and Your will through him God. Please get these men through this situation. You are still here so we are still asking until You move.Again, do what You said You would do.
God,I am back again. There is nowhere else to go. Again, if You do not do it then it will not get done. If You do not provide what is needed for this man and his son then their needs will not be met. You said that You will supply all of our needs. Those were Your words. This man needs for his son to be okay. He is keeping his son in church in spite of the fact that he feels that You have rejected him. He is trying to keep from failing at being a father, and You already know what he has decided to do. Again, God, this man does not need words from You. He needs action, from You. God, stop letting this man feel like a failure. YOU said You would wipe tears and comfort. You said that You would provide rest for the soul. You said that You would be a sheild of protection, and that You want our joy to be fulfilled. We are not seeing any of that right now. God, NoJuan has given up on himself and is focused on his son. Someone needs to focus on NoJuan. That someone would be You Lord. You want these things for him? Then provide them. DO them. GOD RELEASE HIM FROM THIS HOPELESSNESS. Give him something- something that he can see. Give him a reason to believe that he actually matters to You. PROVE IT GOD.
hey nojuan.i hear you. i am getting to the same place that you are. i am ready for my life to end as well. You get sick of people saying that God cares. you get sick of people telling you to hold on, just wait. you get sick of people telling you to stand on His promises. you get soo tired of people saying that God hears your prayers.NOJUAN, i totally, completely am right there with YOU! I am serious.Look up my screen name and prayer history and you will see that i am not lying. I KNOW that I have asked God for guidance and direction and i KNOW that i have put my faith, hope and trust in His word and am still in the same boat. sometimes, it is not about not trusting enough. sometimes, it is not about unrepented sins. sometimes, it really is God that is allowing this. doubt me? look at job. i do not care about Him hearing my prayers if He is not going to ANSWER them. my family can hear my prayers. my friends can hear my prayers. heck the pigeons on these nasty city streets can hear my prayers, but only ONE person can answer them and if He does not answer, then what? who are we supposed to turn to?exactly. and please do not get me started on the reading of His words and promises. reading the bible gets so irritating because it only seems to apply to some people, namely, everyone that is not you or me. believe me Sir i FEEL you. it hurts to be ignored by people. it hurts a whole lot more to feel ignored by God. NoJuan i promise you that i am not going to say any of those encouraging things to you cuz unless it is getting backed up by God, unless it is getting manifested TANGIBLY in your life, then it doesnt really matter right now does it?God, You have a few more days before the person that YOU say YOU love, gives it all up and ends his life. God, we do not want to hear another word about how much You love us. We could care less about the word. We want to see You prove it PERSONALLY in the life of this man. He has given himself 13 days.He needs it tangibly and personally-meaning, do something for him and his son, to him and his son, in HIS life and the life of his son- NOT anyone elses life, God. HIS. All this seeing it in the life of everyone but his, is getting super old. You say You are not a respector of persons. You said that You will give us what we ask for in Your name. Ante up. You made promises. Keep them. People keep saying that You have not left. You have not rejected, well, show it please. We need to see that and we need to see in the life of this man.Keeping us alive is no longer enough. We really cannot see how that is a blessing. Who wants to be kept alive and have nothing but pain, feel nothing but failure, be nothing but ignored by You God? You are supposed to be the God of all comfort. You are supposed to keep us in perfect peace if we keep our minds on You, but God, You have gotta give NoJuan a reason to keep his mind on You. You have to give him a reason to want to keep breathing. You have to meet us where we are, and where he is, right now, is a place where just hearing about what You do for people, aint enough. This man needs the tangible. God, this prayer feels completely futile because I am sure it is no different from any other prayer that has been prayed in his life, in our lives recently. We have not gotten a move any other day, so why should this day be any different? We do not know, but if it is, if there is the slightest chance, slightest reason that we should even entertain the idea that You might be giving NoJuan a turnaround, then do so now. NoJuan is not asking this. I am. Lord, honestly, praying to You feels stupid and pointless. It is almost humiliating, 'cuz it is almost like we know better than to think that You are gonna move, BUT, we are doing it anyways...just in case. Really, it aint like we have got anything else to lose.God, we are asking You to do the things that only YOU can do. Either work a miracle in this man's life or do not hold this man accountable for his actions.Point blank, God. Either You do this God thing, either You fix his life, Lord, or exonerate him of any wrongdoing should he decide to end it. It's only fair. God no one else can fix this! No one else can fix this! ONLY YOU GOD! No one else can show him that You love him at this point- only You and if You truly love him if he is truly not a failure, like these people on here say that You do and like we are "supposed to believe, then PLEASE SHOW HIM PERSONALLY!! Lord, You said to prove You now. We have run out of faith. We have run out of hope, but out of what may be sheer stupidity, we are STILL coming to You with this. We have no where else to go.If You cannot do this, if You will not do this, if You will not fix this situation, then it will not get done- and if that is the case then You have some serious re-writing to do in the Scriptures, because You said that Your promises are for all who ask in Your name. That should apply to us as well.Jesus, do something.That is it really, God. There is nothing more that I can say. There is nothing more that we can ask.Do something. You love him?You love him, God?Do something. 13 days...we, all of us, are waiting.
I pray NoJuan that God will change your mind. Have you ever heard of the poem footprints in the sand, please read it that is you. I believe God will substain you and help you to be that light to your son that your heart desire to be. I pray Father God in the Name of Jesus to change NoJuan's mind for his son sake allow him to see his son need him here with him. Father God show him there is a way out but not through suicide. Father God in the name of Jesus I ask you to bind up that spirit of Suicide right now in the name of Jesus allow lif to rain in NoJuan's spirit, give him peace within give him joy and restore his mind. Father God in the name of Jesus show him how to live and not die but to declare your work. Give him a testimony on how you can deliver and set him free from what he's going through. Father God reach Mr. NoJuan where ever he is let him know he can make it no matter what and he can be that Great Father he desire to be . In Jesus Name Amen.
HiI just want to encourage you and tell you God has not rejected you,the truth is that God loves everyone in the world equally,whether you,they and i know it or not.The bible makes is clear that we suffer or go through alot of trials because we are not aware of certain things in Gods word.You see God is not a liar and never changes,The devil lies to us by putting thoughts in our minds that God is unhappy with us and has rejected us which is a lie.God loves you so much that he sent his son to come and die for our sins and our wrongs,you need to accept this and also accept the forgiveness that comes with it for yourself and stop being so had on yourself. Maybe you have had the results you have so far because you have not totally trusted God or made him part of every decision in your life.all you need to do now is ask our lord to come help you from now on and as that his spirit direct and lead you in every area of your life.read the bible to lift up your spirit and watch things turn in your favour because God takes pleasure when things good well for us and is happy for us